A Journey Inward

I promised I would write a blog when inspiration stuck. And it did.

Yesterday was a day of true healing for me; a day of growth, maturity, strength, courage, a weight lifted, all of those things. Five years ago I had shut my dad out of my life. I remember the day so clearly- worst day of my life. It wasn’t an easy decision but at the time it felt like the right thing, the only thing to do.

Then, a year or two later, I got into yoga. A seemingly simple practice at first, and then you take that journey inward and realize there’s nothing simple about this practice at all.
I realized the difference between my ego and my true self- hence the healing. Ego would have me hold on to anger and not move forward. But my true self wants peace and resolution for myself and my dad.

So after feeling like this big grey, gloomy, looming cloud had been growing 5 years too long, I took a leap of faith over the fire and reached out to him.

I don’t have to understand someone to love them. I was guilty of needing answers for every action and decision instead of accepting things and people as they are and having gratitude for the lessons (intentional or not) behind the actions. I was also guilty of allowing someone make me feel a certain way; victimized, unloved, and resentful.

I love this quote, “We don’t see things as they are, we see things as we are.” Wow. Absolutely. That’s why it is so important for us to meditate. To take time for ourselves, take that journey inward and know how we are, what we are, and who we are so no one gets the opportunity to tell that for us.

So I thought I would share this personal story because someone once told me, pain shared is pain lessened. When we share, we find out that we’re not alone in our struggles. Also, I wanted to share that I learned there is a light at the end of the tunnel if you so wish there to be. And even if you close a door, it doesn’t have to be forever. We do what’s right for us today in the present moment and remain open to what the future could bring.

The light, love, peace, and even the struggles in me, honor the light, love, peace, and even the struggles in you. In sharing these things we are united, we are one.
Namaste.
Nicole

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